It has been over a month since I have returned to the United States and while it might seem like a long time to finally write a reflection of the overall trip, I believe that what I currently remember is what I will continue to look back on when I think about Sweden, and what I have already forgotten probably wasn’t as important as I thought it was in the moment. To answer the question as to whether or not my expectations were met, indeed they were. For those who forgot what exactly what my expectations for this trip were, they were to go to Sweden which meant that regardless of if the plane landed or crashed, if it was on Swedish soil the trip would have technically been a success. The other thing that I would like to clarify is that, like most people from UCF, I created this blog to apply for Bright Futures, but I unlike most, I made this blog because I knew I had people back in the United States who wanted to know what I was up to and this was by far the easiest way to inform them without a continuous detailed repetition. Ever since the night I returned and remembered what a proper bed felt like, my enthusiasm for this blog has died down and it has become a mandatory school assignment again which is much less fun than a creative story on the Tales From Sweden. The final thing I wanted to add is that I recently visited my blog to discover that it now has advertisements. I do not know how, nor do I receive ad revenue, but if this is a new development then I am kind of upset yet strangely proud.
The Schooling
A lot of people (myself included) have the notion that American education is vastly inferior to the education in Europe and while I would like to say that I have come to a conclusive result, I honestly can’t due to the overall bias I would have towards the trip. The class of purchasing logistics on a global scale was definitely informative but I also realize that it is not an accurate representation of the University’s normal class difficulty and schedule. As for enjoyment factor, I can say for a fact that I paid more attention in this class than any of my others at UCF, but that was mostly due to the fact that it was a new experience and comparing the two wouldn’t be fair. Something I did realize though was that I have an obvious bias against UCF because for starters, it was the standard that I judged everything on but the main problems I found I have with UCF are the size and groupings. Jonkoping was able to give me a more down-to-earth and personal learning experience whereas UCF’s learning objective has been to constantly test the limits of the term “Maximum occupancy”. Additionally, something that I have always hated UCF for is the constant grouping and low wages. Last year, when I was technically employed for UCF, I constantly got job “opportunities” from the school all because I was listed under the college of computer science and engineering. Whether applicable or not, these job opportunities were always a constant annoyance with the majority basically saying “Hey, since you got an ‘A’ in this class, you must be qualified to teach it. We’ll give you $10 an hour to do the same thing that someone in your position would be paid at least $60,000 for”. It may be me but paying for a university whose business model includes exploiting students like that isn’t something I would support given the option, and before anyone says that all schools practice this, that just means that the problem is bigger, not better.
The People
The people I met in Sweden were very nice people and through the use of Facebook, I still talk to a few of them. Of course, distance makes it difficult and even though I am sure there is an actual term for it, I want to point out that most people suffer from something I will call Vacation Personality Disorder or “VPD”…also if nobody has come up with this term then I am going to trademark it. VPD is when someone changes who they are while on vacation, especially when nobody else (or a select few) will ever be contacted or seen again. I had some degree of it, and I am sure a lot of other people did as well. Others I know had some extreme cases of it and ended up using it as an excuse to do some nauseating things. I don’t really want to get into this part but there were cases where being in a small group together for a month forced a lot of us to become friends with people we would normally never hang out with under normal circumstances, and thanks to the excuses made while experiencing VPD, the people that I spent the most time with will probably be left to the memories. I know this post is a little on the sulky side but that is the final thing I would like to talk about, the time when all vacations must end.
Adjusting to Normal Life
Adjusting back into my routine was hard to say the least. It was nice to get out of my habitual days for a while but after a month of practical freedom, going back was like putting a bird back in its cage. I have not, nor do I intend to do anything extreme, but I have found that I have been trying to escape my normal life if only for a little while. I used a bit of my savings to improve my living conditions and book a long-delayed trip to Ireland with my brother. I started to read more and started to eat healthier and cook more…but I also got more irritated, and my fuse became shorter, and the things that I had been dealing with and put on pause had suddenly come back to me as if I never left. I started to realize I could not live with my own routine anymore and the only way to get out of it was to do something drastic, or to bear it. And that is what I have been doing. For the past month I have been bearing my job, my hobbies, my relationships, and all I can do is keep bearing it because I know that I will eventually be okay. It had taken me a while to identify it but after my day was ruined due to being charged $14 for a company’s mistake, I vowed two things. 1. Never rent a car from Enterprise again, 2. Identify the little things as little things and don’t let them get under your skin. I have had my time to sulk and be selfish, but now it is time for me to be who I want to be again. It is time for my Tales From Orlando to start once more.